I miss dream.

[miltokki]

also I was listening to 7 days yesterday, and it really hit me like a truck how much I miss dream, especially Jaemin. it's not just their current hiatus, but the obvious fact that outside of listening to music, I haven't really been engaged in fandom or anything like that due to irl demands and I really miss that too. I just don't want to come on twitter and be like "hi guys I'm back!!" only to disappear a few days later. my mutuals don't deserve that at all. I realise now that I was always present earlier this year because

1. it was an escape from uni app depression
2. after my finals, I had a 4 month holiday with no irl responsibilities

so clearly I had enough time on my hands to camp on twitter. I tend to get fixated on things, so coming back online will result in me paying no attention to my studies and other things. I feel like I need to settle properly first, and I need to finish one wip! because I'm not coming back empty handed.

also I've mentioned this before but there's a great lack of fic in the lee jeno/na jaemin tag on ao3. it's either ongoing or pwp and that's not a bad thing at all, but it's not what I want to read especially with dream drought. I wish dream could have some content on yt that I could keep up with but yeah I miss them a lot. I wonder when SM will announce nct2021, though with the Lucas situation, there might be a spanner in the works. I will selfishly admit that I wouldn't mind having it shifted to next year because of my weeping wallet.

and I'm working on a new nomin wip, writer's block is a bitch